Milestones

Hitting milestones.. this can be either a good or a bad thing..
I am freaking out because there is a good possiblility if I keep going at the rate I am going that I will hit a milestone I NEVER wanted to.. and this is 300 pounds... I have officially gained 16 pounds since I started this blog and now officially need to lose HALF my body weight to reach my goal... I am not going to lie.. I am freaked out right now! If I don't change things I WILL hit this horrible milestone and I am afraid it will be sooner rather than later. I am going to change the way I think about eating starting immediately. I need to not get to this horrible number.. I need to work my butt off.. Literally.. (and my tummy, arm fat, and thighs!!) Well.. I am going to work out right now so at least I can get a jump on things.

Also.. I need to re-examine my goals.
My goals for this journey are:
Ultimately-Lose 140 pounds. My absolute goal weight is 140-145.
My ultimate size goal is to wear size 12 or smaller.
Short term- Lose the weight I have gained over the last month of eating like crap!! (aka 16pounds... )
Next goal: Lose 25 pounds
Then lose 10% of my weight or 28 lbs
Then: Weigh <250

I need to keep on making these small goals in order to get to my bigger ultimate goal.

SO..
Here is the damage for this week.. (Kinda makes me wanna puke.. not gonna lie!)
Weight: 286.0 I was hoping to never get this heavy...
Bust: 49
Waist: 45
Hips: 55
Upper arm: 16.5
Thigh: 30

Well.. I have a lot of work ahead of me.. but seeing how bad I have gotten may just be the kick in the pants that I need.. I need to get up and work this weight off.. Wish me luck!!