Thursday, January 31, 2013

Square one...

Well... It does not make for a very good weight loss blog if weight loss is in fact not what is going on...
I am almost back at square one in my weight loss journey. I have officially gained back all but 1 1/2 pounds of what I had lost back in November. Crap....

So.. because of this I am going to refocus.. I am looking at what I want to do and why I want to do it!

What I want to do..
*I want to not be the fat girl anymore!

*I want to feel beautiful. My husband tells me I am beautiful, but I do not feel it because of my body.. it feels like I just have a permanent fat suit on.. I never feel like I look good in anything and that is craptastic..

*I am always looking for a new adventure, so being of a healthy weight and "normal size" would be quite new for me!! I have always been the fat girl..

*I want to prove that I can do this! I want to prove to MYSELF that I can do it. I have failed so many times before.. and I want to prove that I can stick to a healthy lifestyle. Brownies are NOT going to defeat me this time!!!!!!

*I want to be healthy. I want to be able to go up steps without being winded. I want to not hurt all the time because I am out of shape and my muscles don't do what they are supposed to be able to do.. I am a nurse, and because I am out of shape, I am at a greater risk of getting hurt! I plan on being a nurse for about 45 more years so my body has to hold out!!!

*I want to enjoy being young!! I am 26 years old. I want to feel 26! Somedays I feel like I am 46 because I am not physically able to do everything that I want to do. Ick..

*I want to be healthy for when I have kids! I am married now.. and who knows when a children is going to come into the picture for me and Cory. I need to get myself healthy so that when I do get pregnant I give our little one a good start to life!

So.. How to accomplish this???

Well.. what has actually worked for me in the past is Sparkpeople. I was ROCKING it back in November.. but then came Thanksgiving.. and then came Christmas... I got so darn off track.. but I am going to get back into it!! NOW!!

*I am going to track EVERYTHING I eat.. even if it is not good.. No one actually looks at my tracking stats so I am just lying to myself if I don't count something.. and what good is that doing? I know what I did!!

*I am going to exercise for at least 10 minutes a day.. EVERYDAY.. even if I don't want to.. Even if its in the middle of 2 12 hour shifts. I can do 10 minutes if it kills me!!! It doesn't have to be hard.. just 10 minutes of activity.. IT CAN BE DONE!!

*I am going to drink more water!! I am pretty good most of the time when I am working.. but at home I am not at all good at getting the hydration I need.

*I am going to reward myself for accomplishments. When I lose 10 pounds I am going to get a new hairstyle. I am excited to set these up for myself.

I am going to keep journaling about how things are going also.. it helps me to get my thoughts out in writing.. I know nobody really reads this blog.. but it is helpful to have somewhere to write this down!!

Well.. to starting over! Wish me luck!!

Monday, January 28, 2013

Getting back into it

Well.. The holidays really got me off track this year. I was doing So well in my weight loss journey back in November, but Thanksgiving and Christmas really derailed me.. But I truly believe that I can get back into it and ROCK!! Wish me luck!!