Well...

I have been re-examining things a lot lately with the help of my fantastic fiancee. I am looking at what my long and short term goals for my weight loss and getting healthy are. I am setting new, higher ultimate goals, and also trying to set a few tangible small goals also.

I was talking to the Nels and we were discussing my healthification plans. I in the past have tried to set such ridiculously high and lofty goals, and also accomplish them in fairly extreme ways. Because of this, I am often times setting myself up for failure. I am finding that if I set smaller goals and find more realistic ways of accomplishing them, I am much more likely to succeed.

So.. in realizing this, here are some new goals and new ways to go about accomplishing them.
Long term:
Still going with a goal weight of 145 pounds. I need to lose approx 140 pounds to get there. HALF OF ME!!
Fit in a size 12 or lower

Short term
1: Lose 5 pounds by October 1st.
2: Take a walk 3x's a week
3: Pack my lunch for work to avoid the temptations of the cafeteria

These are a good start for right now. I took a walk with the Nels today, and that was really a lot of fun, and a good start to the walking. Walking is something that I can do, and I actually enjoy doing it. I tried the up and running course online, and I will probably do that later on, but I started it and my sciatica is really acting up. It had been so good for a long time, so I am going back to the lower impact walking.

Milestones

Hitting milestones.. this can be either a good or a bad thing..
I am freaking out because there is a good possiblility if I keep going at the rate I am going that I will hit a milestone I NEVER wanted to.. and this is 300 pounds... I have officially gained 16 pounds since I started this blog and now officially need to lose HALF my body weight to reach my goal... I am not going to lie.. I am freaked out right now! If I don't change things I WILL hit this horrible milestone and I am afraid it will be sooner rather than later. I am going to change the way I think about eating starting immediately. I need to not get to this horrible number.. I need to work my butt off.. Literally.. (and my tummy, arm fat, and thighs!!) Well.. I am going to work out right now so at least I can get a jump on things.

Also.. I need to re-examine my goals.
My goals for this journey are:
Ultimately-Lose 140 pounds. My absolute goal weight is 140-145.
My ultimate size goal is to wear size 12 or smaller.
Short term- Lose the weight I have gained over the last month of eating like crap!! (aka 16pounds... )
Next goal: Lose 25 pounds
Then lose 10% of my weight or 28 lbs
Then: Weigh <250

I need to keep on making these small goals in order to get to my bigger ultimate goal.

SO..
Here is the damage for this week.. (Kinda makes me wanna puke.. not gonna lie!)
Weight: 286.0 I was hoping to never get this heavy...
Bust: 49
Waist: 45
Hips: 55
Upper arm: 16.5
Thigh: 30

Well.. I have a lot of work ahead of me.. but seeing how bad I have gotten may just be the kick in the pants that I need.. I need to get up and work this weight off.. Wish me luck!!

Apparently this has become a weight-GAIN blog...

Ok.. so this has went from a weight loss to a weight gain blog. I have officially surpassed my heaviest recorded weight ever.. This means I really have to get serious about stuff...

Here's the problem...
I started this weight loss blog in the middle of a hiatus from working out and exercising right.. Apparently when I go off of a plan I REALLY go off of it..
Go big or go home I always say.. and I am GOING BIG!!

Also, I just went home to see my family.. and home means FOOD! Lots of food. And good home-cooked food. That is one of my other problems.. I am lazy and don't cook as I should.. maybe if I cooked for myself and Cory at home, I would not eat out so much and also not sow down the home-cooked meals when I can!!

Here are the shameful measurements this week.
Weight- 277.4
Hips-55.5
Waist- 45
Bust- 49
Thigh- 29
Upper arm- 16

Well.. at least I am going back on a plan and can start losing the pounds and inches. I am starting to learn how to run. I am also going to start Weight Watchers this week. Now just have to prove to myself that I can get through SOMETHING without quitting!